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Lately, my minds been telling me that I know how to play. I know how to play the game, yet I find it scary. I’m capable of playing with emotions now. I have conquered the game, now it’s just a question of choosing whether to abuse it or not.
Because I know how it works now.
I cared too much to understand how it works. I empathize for others more than my emotions alone would allow. I have a fast analytical mind that helps me understand the world and it’s people. I think I’ve got the grasp of how the world works.
It’s funny how when I was a child, I believed that adults were always right. I viewed adults as responsible and knowledgeable.
Later, I saw how it works. That it’s not just rainbows and butterflies. That a good heart can turn cold/bitchy because once a upon a time, it wasn’t, it was beautiful.
I lost respect, and things puzzled in on me. My mind went berserk and I suffered many many times. My combination of character traits didn’t help either. My view of the world kind of shattered. I lost respect towards adults and everyone else around me. It disappoints and saddens my heart to see these things.
